Katie

01:38 pm: im only doing this because i cant use myspace at work...

http://kevan.org/johari?name=katie+marie+fischer

08:33 pm: long time no talk
sorry livejournal...i have to say. ive been having an affair.

and im afraid i love myspace more then you.

08:00 am: happy new year!
I stole this from angela...i <3 it. happy new year everyone. hope this year is one to remember-for the good and the bad.


-To every girl that dresses cute not skanky
-To every girl who wants to be called beautiful not hot.

-To every girl that will spend her whole day looking for the perfect birthday present for you.

-To every girl who gets her heart broken because he chose the whore instead.

-To every girl who is nice to everyone no matter who they are.

-To every girl that would die to have a decent boyfriend.

-To every girl that wont settle for the jerk.

-To every girl who would just like once to be treated like a princess.

-To every girl that cries at night because of another heartbreak.

-To every girl that wont get down on her knees and open her mouth just to get a boyfriend.

-To every girl that just wants to hold hands.

-To every girl that kisses him with meaning.

-To every girl who just wishes he cared.

-To every girl who would just once want a guy to give their jacket up when they are cold.

-To every girl who just wants him to call.

-To every girl who wastes her day waiting by the phone.

-To every girl that just wants to cuddle.

-To every girl that just wants to sleep (no sex) with him.

-To every girl that is scared to put her heart out there again because she has been hurt so many times.

-To every girl who shows how much she cares and gets nothing back.

-To every girl that thought maybe this could be the one.

-To every girl that believes in her dreams
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-To every girl that would do anything so she could achieve them.

-To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff when she actually does think it is funny.

-To every girl who is just looking for that one and only and is having a rough time along the way.

-To every girl that gave her heart only to have it shoved back in her face.

This one is for you.


-----If you are a nice girl repost this: Title- "nice girls finish last"

-----If you are a guy that thinks every girl should try to encompass even a few of these things.....repost it with the title "I am looking for this girl"

08:15 pm: Real Quick
I know I never update this anymore but for every that does read this check my MYSPACE cuz i finally put some pictures on there...and well lets face it livejournal hates me and wont let me put the pictures on here.

so look there to see them...do it...do it now!

that is all...good day.

06:45 am: my thoughts on life:
so this entry really isnt for anyone besides erin since its pretty much completly directed at her :)

i tried to call you the other day about my thoughts on laguna, you didnt answer your phone and you never called me back. i guess ill have to tell you here. OMG! i hate jason so much and i seriously want to punch him in the face, and while im punching him in the face im going to go slap jessica and tell her to wise the fuck up an realize what hes doing to her. i feel so bad for her, but then again i dont because shes be so naive, its like she wants to love him so bad that shes just choosing to ignore all the things people are telling her about him. i totally know how she feels since people did it to me with val, you should know too but hey you still love lunzie dont you(ill get to my thoughts of that shortly)i think jessica is just being stupid, and even though jason says hes sick of her shit, hell never leave him cuz he knows the power he has over her and that shell never leave him.

now kristin needs to just leave talan alone, the only reason i can figure that shes trying to hook back up with him is since she knows he has a thing for talyor. and well because stephen isnt around, hes too busy with lc. i think that when it comes to love in laguna beach it should be like this: stephen and lc(even though i do think him and kristin make a cuter couple)jessica and dieter, jason and alex(cuz their assholes that deserve each other)talan and taylor. yep thats what i think...i cant wait for next weeks epiosde it looks like its gonna be hella good.

now on to what i have to say about YOU: i heard thru the grapevine that you 2 are back together again, funny how you didnt mention that to me last time we talked. its not suprising though since you know how i feel about that, and since ive given you my speech over and over again for the last 3 years. i think your a fool for being with him, much like jessica is a fool for loving jason. i think hes a cool kid to hang out with i dont have a problem with him personally, but i hate the fact that you let him be in your life. i know that you love him and that you cant find anyone else and blah blah blah but from what i gather your not even really trying. look at all the shit hes done to you but hes still going to be your boyfriend? i used to feel sorry for you, sorry that you felt like you needed someone like him in your life. but i dont feel sorry for you anymore, now i just think your stupid. there is a great guy out there that deserves your love but your so stuck on whats his face that you cant even see it. i hope one day that he finally hurts you enough that youll let him go, and stay gone. hes already done so much to you, theres probably even some stuff that i dont know about. how much more does he have to do to make you stop?

that is all i have to say, im sure your probably going to be pissed at me for speaking my mind, but look at it this way; its nothing ive never said before. im not going to stop feeling this way, your supposed to be my best friend i cant just not care that he treats you like shit. like kristin told jessica i love you but i dont love your boyfriend.

08:10 am: so sad
It's okay if I'm a little sloppy sometimes ... it's okay that my hair doesn't always look nice. And it's okay that I'm not perfect. It's okay because I think it's okay ... and it's okay ... because I've found a boy who thinks it's more than okay.

i love him...so much it hurts sometimes. its been awhile(if ever)that ive felt this completly safe in love. i miss him terribly this has been a long week and its not even over yet, how on earth will i ever deal with him going to mississippi?

im getting my hair and bikini done today and then tomorrow im going with perez to get a pedicure and my eyebrows waxed. im going to make sure i look REAL good for when he comes home, just cuz i know hed love me even if i didnt :)

im so bored i wish today would go by faster...OHHHH! mary and axel bought me the complete first season of laguna beach yesterday since i always babysit but never charge them. im SOOOO excited, so ill be in my room tonight watching it if anyone needs me :)

have a lovely day kids...hugs and kisses

k

10:46 am: happy erin?
so erin suggested that i give a real update about whats going on in my life but i dont have time to be all detailed so heres a brief list:

1. jj is going to texas in a week, ill be so sad. hes only going to be for a week but weve never been away from each other for that long.
2. i want a new truck SOOOOOOO bad, i want to sell my car before its paid off but i think ill pay it off then sell it and use the money i get for a down payment. i think i either want a 2005 colorado or like a early 2000's tacoma or tundra. trucks are so expensive so ill have to shop around.
3. plans are starting to come together for me to come home in december, probably for 2 weeks. jj will be coming with me, i figure the family christmas party is the best time for him to meet the fam.
4. jj leaves for mississippi in febuary, i think ill be driving with him to texas...yay roadtrip:)
5. justin and leah moved out here a couple weeks ago...we went over there for dinner the other night. it went good im happy justin an jj get along, that was important to me.
6. call it a little premature but me and jj have started talking about getting married, within the next year or so. now we just have to agree on a place to get married :)

hmm theres lots of other things that have been going on but well frankly im to lazy and im about to go to lunch and leave for the day. maybe ill write more when i have nothing else to do again.

katie

07:50 am: i should be in love with myself....
Taurus, the Bull (April 21 to May 21): This warmhearted and determined partner is just your type. Initially, a Taurus may catch your eye with a romantic gesture or their penchant for having a good time. But as you get to know them, you're even more likely to be drawn to your Taurean's unwavering devotion and dedication. People born under this sign typically know what they want out of life and stick by the decisions they've made. This devotion to their own truths can make members of this sign seem stubborn or critical at times. However, know that most Taureans are also sentimental types who like to focus on their romantic relationships. In the bedroom, you're apt to find that the Bull is a creative and expressive lover with a high sex drive. It's just another aspect of their vital nature, one that finds pleasure in everyday things and has an eye for beauty.

08:46 am: work=bored
Those other girls just don't worry me anymore, Because at the end of the day, I'm what he comes home to.


yea i got that...its pretty outstanding.

12:18 pm: pink turtle
we went to TJ on saturday and not suprisingly i got retarded with jj.

we started yelling at each other and i stormed off. so to make me smile he bought me this lil pink ceramic turtle. i almost started crying...it was nice.

going home for the day now. holler at yall later.

08:37 pm: this made my day
erin put this on her journal...it made my day so i thought id share it with all you people that dont read erins journal...enjoy

And #1: kayt is a sto that likes to drink jack daniels and make porn, she also likes to save horses and ride cowboys...


OH! were about to go to TJ and now that i have a digital camera i should have some super fun pix for all ya folks back home.

holla at ya later

07:13 am: booooored
im leaving work in like an hour an a half and damn me if i already havent done everything i have to do today. so here i sit...bored with nothing to do but fuck around online.

yay for jj winning me a digital camera though! now all i have to do is figure out how to put pix on the internet...hmmm

...boredom at its best....

(x) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
(x) smoked anything else
(x) made out with a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car


(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(x) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight...only fun ones though


(x)snuck out of parent's house...hah thats how i lost my virginity
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back..ugh story of my life
(x) been arrested..haha yea been there
( ) made out with a stranger
(x) gone on a blind date


(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school...its a nice day, i dont think ill go?
(x) slept with a co-worker...lol only since i joined the navy
( ) seen someone die


(x) had/have a crush on one of your MYSPACE friends...i used to <3 alan
(x) been to Canada..duh
(x) been to Mexico..see above
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar



( ) eaten Sushi
(x) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
(x) been moshing at a concert...erin did you forget DEMF?


(x) been in an abusive relationship...again story of my life
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone right now...by golly i do
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel


(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up


(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school...i woke up just to go back to sleep at school


( ) used a fake ID
(x) watched the sun set...on the ocean its even better
(x) felt an earthquake...only since i moved to cali
(x) touched a snake


(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(x) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood...generally its done the most by people that know me really well
(x) pet a reindeer/goat..i want a pet goat


(x) won a contest...just last night i got a free digital camera
(x) been suspended from school...damn you erin for corrupting me
(x) had detention...see above
(x) been in a car accident


(x) had braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight


(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes


(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country.now i live there

(x) swam in the ocean..even if i hated it
(x) felt like dying


(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins..ahh high school


(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't..all the time
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) kissed in the rain


(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
(x) been kissed under a mistletoe..mistletoe should be hung all year round
(x) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach..yay for fiesta island bonfires


(x) crashed a party
( ) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people (does family count?)
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true..im happy arent i?
( ) humped a monkey


(x) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed "penis" in class
( ) ate dog food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them


(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
( ) fucked in a park
(x) fucked in the bathoom
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something


(x) got your toungue stuck to a pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) been a cheerleader..only in a kinky sex way
(x) sat on a roof top


( ) had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) done a one-handed cartwheel
( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night


( ) didnt take a shower for a week
(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone


(x) believe in ghosts
(x) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school
( ) gone streaking
( ) played ding-dong-ditch


(x) played chicken fight
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on..thanks to bill doyle
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger.im being stalked on my phone
(x) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused


( ) caught a fish then ate it
(x) made porn..not intentionally
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed


(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name


(x) slept naked
(x) French braided someones hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a pool
(x) been kicked out of your house

01:12 pm: to you
I know that you still read this, even if you'll never admit to it. Admitting that you still check on me would be like admitting that you still care about me, but you wont do that either. Instead you'll leave me to hear about your life and your feelings from other people.

It doesnt take a genius to figure out you missed me, the whole lack of talking to me was a big clue. I wont lie I miss you sometimes too. You pop into my head at the most random times, little memories that still months later can make me smile. I heard you moved to Georgia...I truly hope you find the happiness there that you deserve.

You'll never say it and at this point hearing it might kill me more. Please move on, I don't deserve your love. Not anymore anyways. You are an amazing,sweet,funny,caring,sexy and genuine person who deserves the same in return, I cant be that for you but there is someone out there that can be. FIND HER!

We cant spend our lives playing the 'what if' game, especially since we'd always be getting back to the same question. I'm sure things would have been differnt if I had stayed longer, if we would have just told each other how we felt instead of hiding behind our fears. But everything happens for a reason, and whether we see it now or not there is a reason we ended up where we are.

I miss you and still care about you. There is no amount of time or distance that will ever change that, even if I wanted to I couldnt make that stop. I hope one day we can be friends or at least be somewhat in each others lives(not just hearing about it from friends)Please take care of yourself, enjoy the new life you've made. Maybe one day you'll let me back in to share it.

08:33 am: so i did a whole big entry...it was for real big but it disappered and now im pissed. so fuck you livejournal.

10:21 pm: yay for myspace!
im babysitting tonight and im real bored so i updated my myspace page...yall should check it out...cuz itll make me smile. im going to add more pix as soon as i get them developed from the kenny chesney concert.

i have duty tomorrow so ill add more then. holla back.

xoxo

09:35 pm: i hope
funny how i dont update for like a million years at a time but then today ive done it 3 times already. so i was really bored and playing on craigslist. and me being the huge dork that i am i decieded to post something for him,knowing that he checks that site and since he has duty tomorrow im almost positive hell see it. yea im a big lame...but maybe one day hell love me?!?! heres what i wrote:

http://sandiego.craigslist.org/mis/78210231.html

02:57 pm: sooo bored

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

Your #1 Love Type: ENFP

The Inspirer In love, you are passionate and eager to develop a strong bond. For you, sex should be playful, creative, and affectionate. Overall, you are perceptive and bring out the best in your partner. However, you tend to hold on to bad relationships after they've turned bad. Best matches: INTJ and INFJ

Your #2 Love Type: ENFJ

The Giver In love, you give your all and feel guilty when relationships fail. For you, sex is not seperate from love and caring. Overall, you are humorous, giving, and motivational. However, you tend to be over-protective and critical of your partner. Best matches: INFP or ISFP

Your #3 Love Type: INFP

The Idealist In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship. For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up. Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive. However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space. Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ

Your #4 Love Type: INFJ

The Protector In love, you strive to have the perfect relationship. For you, sex is nearly a spiritual experience, a bonding of souls. Overall, you have high expectations for any relationship you're in. However, you tend to hold back a part of yourself. Best matches: ENTP and ENFP

Your #5 Love Type: ENTP

The Visionary In love, you are always trying to improve and grow your relationship. For you, sex should be a spontaneous adventure. Overall, you are magnetic, inspiring, and a charmer. However, you tend to get bored and want to change partners frequently. Best matches: INFJ and INTJ

ok im for real going to paint the crane now...

06:25 pm: wow
found this online...i totally get this. am i alone on that?

After a while you learn the
subtle difference
Between holding a hand and
chaining a soul.
And you learn that love doesn’t
mean security.
And you begin to learn that
kisses aren’t contracts
And presents aren’t promises
And you begin to accept your
defeats
With your head up and your
eyes open.
And you learn to build all your
roads
On today because tomorrow’s
ground
Is too uncertain. And futures
have a way of falling down in
mid-flight.
After a while you learn that
even sunshine burns if you get
too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting
For someone to bring you
flowers
And you learn that you really
can endure…
That you really are strong.
And you really do have worth
And you learn and learn
With every goodbye you learn.

05:00 pm: where do i begin?
wow where do i even begin to speak of the things that have been happening in my life lately? ill just pick a spot i guess.

a couple weeks ago out of curiosity i looked my dad up online, i found his address and phone number in alaska. after talking it over with some people and thinking very deeply about it, i decieded to call him. the first couple times i did i muted the phone and did *67. finally after getting up enough courage i called and talked to him. we talked for a couple hours, we shared stories about whats happened over the last 16 years. i made sure he knew that even though he was gone for the vast majority of my life, i lacked for nothing. i told him what a good job my family had done raising me, and made it a point that he knew how incredible my mom had been with me. that was always one thing i wanted him to know if we did ever talk, i wanted him to know that i didnt need him in my life and that my mom did an amazing job all by herself. so after we talked on the phone he started emailing me and as anyone who knows me knows, i dont return emails very quickly(unless of course its someone i REALLY want to talk too)so after a few unanswered emails he started getting mean. talking shit about the fairless's and even worse about my mom. wow did that spin me up. so i emailed him back and bitched at him for everything he said. now he emails me every couple days and tells me how sorry he is. ill give him one thing though, if nothing else now that hes found me hes very persistant in trying to get in my life.

erin an andrea were here 2 weeks ago, i was happy they were here but it made me realize alot of things. it made me realize that as much as a may miss some of the things and some of the people back home, i really have no desire to go back. i dont know where ill end up, be it cali or somewhere else. all i know is that it wont be in michigan.

oh so much more to talk about but theres certin people sitting by me that dont know what i write on here and i plan to keep it that way, since some of the things could be about them. ill write more later.

hope everyone has a good day. happy bday roo!

<3 katie

09:58 pm: andrea and erin are here...yay for MI friends.

i got another new tattoo...oh and i have to pee very very badly.

write more on monday when i have duty.

hope everyone is having a smashing day

<3katie